Eventually, mind discovers that it's free, that it's infinitely out of control and infinitely joyful. Eventually, it falls in love with the unknown. In that it can rest. And since it no longer believes what it thinks, it remains always peaceful, wherever it is or isn't.
~Byron Katie
Thank you all for your amazingly supportive and helpful comments. I usually keep things light around here and will continue to do so, but I guess my mama bear instincts just have to do what needs to be done in order to be heard. And I was. And it meant the world to me. I tried to reply to each comment, so unless your e-mail wasn't working, you should have heard back from me.
This week is looking brighter. I'm back at work, my fever is down, the little one is trudging along with more optimism, and Sasa and I have been ripping apart our kitchen. I'm not used to feeling so helpless and down. It's not me. Sasa has been by my side through it all and we've been pulling out our copy of Byron Katie's book. It's allowing me to get back to myself; to get back to the true love and joy that is always inside me. The love and joy that allows me to see that everything is okay, and everything is unfolding just as it should. And when you live with that, it's so easy to dive into life.
Enjoy the week! I hope to have a crafty post or two soon, so stay tuned.
