oh, you all. you all have been through so many manifestations of this space here. and maybe i lost some of you along the way, but i do know there are many of you still here. and i believe that the more real i get with myself in this space, the more i connect with others feeling the same. and i attract readers with a similar energy, or something here resonates with them and they know they are meant to be here, reading all i have to say.
there has been a shift over the past couple of years to something more real. more honest. more open. and i want to continue with that. because life is about learning and growing, and heck...i'm not afraid to admit that! and if someone finds what i have to say inspiring and it helps them on their own journey, then well...that's all i could really ask for.
last night i got thinking. i was thinking about everything. contemplating life and what it's about. i was sitting on the couch journaling. and i was feeling rather sad. i stopped for a moment and posted here...that picture where i may look sleepy, but really i was just thinking. and i should have said more, but i was too tired at that point to really write anything. so here i am now.
i thought all through the night (it was a very restless sleep) and i woke at an early 6 a.m. to the sun slowly rising through the big window in the bedroom. i laid there in bed for an hour, thinking. i slept with my camera on the next pillow in hopes of catching that sunrise for a project i'm working on. and i did. i took some pictures without even moving my head from the pillow. and i stayed there thinking some more about life and what it's about. and then i went on a long run and thought some more.
and i thought that maybe, just maybe, there is a way to shift things. to take a situation and make it different. to observe your immediate reactions and behaviors which have been a certain way your entire life and change them. notice them. create an awareness around them that is so constant that there is no way to continue thinking in a certain way. and that's kind of liberating to recognize that.
i believe i'll never stop growing and learning and changing. i feel like a river...just flowing around bends and curves and along straight stretches to wherever it takes me. i don't argue with it. i just go with it. there are no wrong turns, it all just takes you exactly where you are meant to go.
and that's what i thought about today, and where i've arrived tonight.
thanks for listening, friends. xoxo