my mother came up to join us for a couple of days. the little one and i took her to one of our favorite trails in the woods for a long hike. we explored the woods, the streams, the shore, and all the fairy houses along the way. i was grateful for the sun and the chance to move my body.
i'm not sure many of you know that i am runner, or to what extent of a runner i have been. i recently found out that i need to slow up on my running. i have been running for almost 12 years now; often quite intensely. i have run through pain, battled frostbite from going out in too cold weather, driven my body fat so low that i was told i may never get pregnant again. my body has been telling me to take it easy, but i have not listened. i don't have any serious running injuries to report, but the wear and tear on my body has been slowly starting to appear. i've been told to slow down, cross-train, take it easy, and gain weight.
so that's what i'm doing. hiking, walking, running around the yard, dancing, swimming, gardening...all the activities of summer that are keeping my body healthy. it's funny to watch my body physically morph before my very own eyes. hard muscles have given way to softer places. i have hips now. my runner's thighs are starting to shrink up, and the skin that was pulled so taughtly across my face is plumper now. people are commenting on how healthy i look and using the word "beautiful" instead of commenting on my "fitness." it's a strange transition for me, but i am so open to it.
it's been a journey. the past two months i've run less than ever before. i am trying to be grateful for all the other ways i can move my body. he keeps telling me i've never looked better. but it's still hard to give up something i've loved for so long. i run because i love it, not because i want to look a certain way. it is one of the things in life that brings me the greatest joy. the sense of accomplishment and strength i have received from it has been a gift; one i hope to carry with me no matter what i'm doing.
for now, i'll get out in the woods and enjoy the fresh air, i'll swim in the pond, i'll paddleboard and kayak, and enjoy our evening walks under the stars. life is constantly shifting. nothing is forever.