added responsibilities, more bills and chores and things needing to get done, more jobs...big jobs that require serious time and effort and energy, and all the other things that make up life as an adult.
some days we head our separate ways, all three of us. for hours and hours we are apart. i hunker down and focus on my work, putting in 10, sometimes 12 hours a day. then there are the shoots that take up our whole weekend, leaving the summer whirling by with no way to catch up to it.
there is a shift in the air now. summer is threatening to come to an end and fall is just around the corner. we suddenly realize that even with our best intentions, we didn't do nearly as much as we set out to do.
we often get bogged down just by the sheer effort it takes to make a living in this world. how much time and energy it requires, often with not much to show for it. i am so blessed and fortunate to have this work. to be doing something i love. but i won't lie, it requires my effort every second of every day. and sometimes the night too.
sometimes i suddenly feel like something is out of balance. being a libra i'm more acutely aware of anything off kilter. an alarm goes off in my internal awareness. i suddenly come face to face with what is, and what is not, working. and i have to decide what i can do to get it back to a comfortable place.
that comfortable place for me is, well...nothing. just being. no deadlines, no responsibilities, no worries. i think we all need moments like this in our lives today.
m and i aim for this once a week. maybe it's an hour, or maybe it's a whole day. it depends on what we can squeeze out of our schedules. it generally requires laughing, creating, wine (or champagne is my preference because there's always something to celebrate), often dancing and more laughing, a walk or bike ride.
i worried that maybe "escaping" reality wasn't the healthiest way to find peace and serenity, but perhaps it's more about balance. balancing the pressures of everyday life and what is in our hearts. the lightness we all felt as children, where there was nothing better than racing bikes down a hill and laughing until our stomachs ached. i don't think we should ever lose that joy.
so we escape to the backyard, wine in hand. we paint and laugh. we ask questions. we check on the baby chicks and laugh at their silly ways. we watch cars go by while laying in the hammock together. we take each other's pictures to capture the beauty we see deep in our souls. we watch the clouds roll in and laugh as we get caught in a downpour, dancing in the rain. we grab the football and play toss because we are already soaking wet. we chase each other around the yard. we decide what we want to eat for dinner and make it together. we eat, talking and dreaming. the sun sets, the stars come out. i grab the picnic blanket and his arm and drag him outside. i put the blanket down and we lay next to each other pointing out our favorite stars. i count six shooting stars and ask the universe for one more. as i say it, a star falls. he tells me i'm magic. we lay there in the chilly night air, breathing in the smell of ocean and life, and say how grateful we are to be exactly where we are.
that is my peace. that is my joy.
what do you do to create balance in your life? what brings you the most peace and joy?
and i'm loving this right now...(boy, she reminds me of the little one!)